1. There’s blood on the sheets. Is it from your wrists or my heart?
2. If you took an x-ray of my body, you would see your name etched into my bones over and over and over again.
3. You only wanna kiss me when you’re high which is all the fucking time but it still makes me throat feel tight
4. I shake when you touch me. You are everything I hate and everything I need.
5. I woke up in the middle of the night and saw you sleeping next to me and I almost screamed because I don’t recognize either of us anymore
6. Oh my god my bones ache i dont know what you did to me
7. You’re a disease, you’ve infected me and no matter how many pills I take I can’t seem to get rid of you.
8. There’s so much blood
9. I texted you and told you to come back and you looked at me like I was crazy because you were standing right in front of me. I wish you had known what I meant.
10. I can’t even cry anymore. I just kind of sit there with my head in my hands wondering whether or not I’m dead. It’s like you stole every color inside me and painted the walls of my chest black. You always said you wanted to be an artist.
11. You were supposed to find me on the bathroom floor but you never even came home."
Are you asking me personally or are you seeking advice?